Acceptance.

I have a good life. It isn't perfect, and that is ok. I have learned so much about myself over the last several months...about my strength, about my family, about my life. Things around here get better every day. Brian and I are talking again, and no matter what happens, that is a really good thing. He was smiling last night. Smiling! Not a fleeting smile, but a real smile. I can't even imagine how that makes him feel. He began laughing when he realized he was able to smile again. I hope he's able to find reasons to put a penny in the good jar. Maybe not every day, but even one day is more than he's had in a long time.

Punkin' Patch

TONS o' fun. ;)

Dave and Sarah came for the weekend. I always have such a great time with them. The kids also had a blast. We went shopping, played a TON with the kids, carved pumpkins, cooked a TON, ate a TON, and had a great time. The pumpkins are AWESOME, and so are the pumpkin seeds Sarah made for us.

After seeing Brian briefly on Sunday, they were bummed to see him so sad. They both said they really love him, he's a great guy, and they hope he finds his happiness. They love hanging out with him as well.

Hello, Peanut!

HOORAY for Dave and Sarah!

Grandpa Heywood is 93

He kicked his wife out two weeks ago. She's now in assisted living. He's getting a divorce. This is just so wild. My grandpa Bolenbaugh did the same thing at 92!

A smile.

I actually saw one for a brief moment last night. Brian's smile makes me fall in love with him all over again. I know things are done with us, but I just can't resist that smile. It was nice to see him happy for a moment. I don't think I have seen him smile in 6 weeks.

Turning things around.

Yesterday was a sad day for me. A realtor came through the house to put together a proposal for the sale. It is just sad to me that we worked so hard to get here, and now we have to let it all go.

Then the kids came home.

We had such a great night. We found fuzzy caterpillars. We found an orange salamander. We squirted eachother with squirt bottles while running around the yard. We sat down and had dinner together and talked. They took a long bath and I blew bubbles. They even let me trim their nails without much fuss! They each slept in their own bed, while we wold stories to fall asleep.

My boys make the world a better place.